- Taking my kids to CALM - California Living Museum
- Leftovers we didn't eat
- My neighbor Carrie
- My friend Shawn
- My friend Jeannette
Friday, November 25, 2011
Five Things That I'm Grateful for Today
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Reflection
"The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers." - M. Scott Peck, psychologist.
I've been reading a lot lately. Doing some research. Getting into contact with some other former Jehovah's Witnesses. When my Mr. Big offered himself to me and I accepted (though nothing has happened yet), I knew that I could no longer call myself a Witness. I'm not sure, but I think I may have stumbled across apostates. I'm cautious, because there is a lot of information out there now and I meet everything with trepidation. And I don't want to be labeled an apostate either.
I miss that I had a blog with years of my history on it. Something my daughter and my son could have gone back and read and learned about their mama. Who I was, what made me tick, and how much I love them. How they'll always be a part of me and me them. They are in my heart forever. I will not love a religion or a God more than them. I don't believe He would want that. I miss very few friends from Phoenix too and I wish I had more friends here. I will in time. It just has to happen slowly. I'm starting over and it's for the better. A different chapter in my life. Sometimes I sit and wonder if I'll ever remarry and I really don't know what the future holds or who I will meet.
At least I still have my written journals they can go through. This is a rambling post and what I really wanted to do was begin my gratitude journal. Write at least five things I'm grateful for today:
I've been reading a lot lately. Doing some research. Getting into contact with some other former Jehovah's Witnesses. When my Mr. Big offered himself to me and I accepted (though nothing has happened yet), I knew that I could no longer call myself a Witness. I'm not sure, but I think I may have stumbled across apostates. I'm cautious, because there is a lot of information out there now and I meet everything with trepidation. And I don't want to be labeled an apostate either.
I miss that I had a blog with years of my history on it. Something my daughter and my son could have gone back and read and learned about their mama. Who I was, what made me tick, and how much I love them. How they'll always be a part of me and me them. They are in my heart forever. I will not love a religion or a God more than them. I don't believe He would want that. I miss very few friends from Phoenix too and I wish I had more friends here. I will in time. It just has to happen slowly. I'm starting over and it's for the better. A different chapter in my life. Sometimes I sit and wonder if I'll ever remarry and I really don't know what the future holds or who I will meet.
At least I still have my written journals they can go through. This is a rambling post and what I really wanted to do was begin my gratitude journal. Write at least five things I'm grateful for today:
- My car passed emissions
- Someone gifted me my waxing
- My son had his haircut today and looks especially dashing!
- We had food to eat.
- And a nice warm home to be in.
There. That felt better.
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